too long a post for almost too long a time.. kulang pa rin.. but at least...
tagal ko palang di nakapagblog. last week (last last last), peachy and i watched fantastic four nga, oks naman. nice ang movie, i like the effects. anyway, kinwento ko na rin kay peachy ang aking project.. natatawa sya. as usual, wendy's na naman ang kinain habang movie, at this time, large na ang fries at drinks.. sa totoo lang, large fries lang ang habol ko doon.. hahaha. saya naman. nag-ikot pa kami after. uwi rin me ng mga 9:30.
puro work ata ng week na to.. though the highlight is that yamot na yamot ako sa blue ko, to the point that i was jobhunting for nearly every night after that. nilunok ko na ang pride ko at kinausap ko ang cousin ko na maraming contact na company (presidents pa ang contacts nya, say mo?), over lunch, to set me up.. i was really raring to go. i didn't care how i would do it, i just wanted to be out of my boss' team. as in ganun ako kabwiset sa kanya. ayun.. by weekend, may treat si ninang fida for her 50th birthday. dapat saturday evening kaya lang nanood kami ni mama ng beauty and the beast sa meralco theater, so it was reset to sunday lunch na. napag-usapan naman ng zest-o club na mag-star city after, kasi sayang yung tickets ni tita alma ni binigay.
anyway.. about the play. i read previously (friday afternoon) sa isang review that karel is a better singer than kc, but kc is a better actress. so sa araw ng play, i was kinda hoping to catch karel, not kc. pero ok lang, it was kc on our show. she was good, though she's not the belter type.. but then again, hindi rin naman sobrang belter ang mom nya. she's good, but not THAT good, maybe because she was surrounded by veterans on stage. the one who played gaston (calvin millado) was hilariously good, the beast, portrayed by jett pangan, very good din. mrs. potts, portrayed by pinky marquez (karel's mom) was good too. yung ibang characters good rin..
anyway, mama and i had a dialogue (the same old boring topic) again on our way home. naiinis na ako talaga.. she says, in life, you can't go about doing everything you like doing, there are things na ginagawa dahil kailangan. sya daw, mas madaming ginagawang kailangan kaysa gusto. heck, that's precisely what i don't want myself to be. in a way, i don't want to be like her. she's not that bad, but i can tell that she isn't as happy as she could be. ayokong maging ganon ako.
anyway, come sunday, may treat si ninang. maaga kaming dumating sa glorietta.. so nag-ikot ikot muna kami. saya ng chika namin ni zhel.. ang tagal kasi nina shoogie, at blogz. tawanan lang kami ng tawanan.. sa instant ayos (tangos_, chinika ko na rin ang tatangkad (tatangos) rin ito.. haha. pati pagkain.. paano ba naman kasi, ang liit liit nung plato sa kwantung.. kulang pa sa rice consumption ko, hehehe. yun.. pati food binubusisi namin. later dumating na rin sina shoogie at blogz, napalayo nga lang sila ng upuan samin..
after, kanya kanyang lakad. kami naman, walang mapuntahan sa glorietta. naiinitan na ko sa suot ko, tapos si bea nagta-tantrums na. i was getting pissed off na.. gusto ko kasama sila, pero ayoko ng ganon super tantrums yung bata.. di naman namin maiwan. punta na lang kaming oakwood, hoping na bukas ang day care.. pero sarado. tambay na lang kami sa lobby kasi naiwan ni blogz ang susi nya ng office sa bahay. sina shoogie nag picture-an dun sa may swimming pool, naglaro si bea, at nag gameboy naman ako.. yoko kasing lumabas. later, napag-desisyonan na mag-redbox na lang. inuwi muna namin si bea para bihisan, pero at the end natulog na sya at si kuya noli kaya si blogz na lang ang sumama sa amin.
dapat pupunta pa kami kina shoogie kasi kukunin ang redbox certificate. kaya lang pinauwi na kami ng mga elders na nagpapahalata ng age. si tita chit tinopak na.. di daw nagpaalam si shoogie (duh?).. at lalong tinopak nung nalaman na wala kami sa glorietta kundi sa bahay nina ate logz.. na as if its 12AM at kami ay nagpunta sa isang gay bar.. natraffic pa kami pabalik ng ayala kasi may banggaan sa paseo. so pagdating namin ng landmark where they were waiting, badtrip na kami lahat.. lalo na kay tita chit.. as in sobra.. masyadong syang unreasonable. habang pabalik nga kami super simangot na kami.. kinausap ko pa si mama para kalmahin si tita before we even got there. si hazel pinayagan, though sabi wag na daw kaming tumuloy kasi di kasama si shoogie. saya, si ate blogz e umalis para samahan kami at ihatid. pero on our way back, nag-stop over at shakey's glorietta.. which ended up to dinner. habang may semi-hingahan kami ng sama ng loob, may tinuro si kaye na babaeng maputi.. ganon ko daw gusto maging skintone. lahat kami nilingon yung babae kahit likod na lang nya yung makikita. e may kasamang american yung girl.. and tamang tama na paglingon namin, pininch ng guy yung butt ng girl.. yuck.. hehe.
masaya din sa shakey's. the following weekend pupunta kami kina ninang para samahan si ninang ah kasi wala si tita alma. hehe. maraming bloopers. masama nga loob ko kasi gusto ko talaga ng yellow cab, pero napagkasunduan na sa overnight na lang kami magye-yellow cab.
earlier that week, i ditched a dinner treat ng isang big boss sa team for going to center for pop para sa contest prep. syempre si coach dynes ang coach. masaya sobra.. its nice to be back! kwela sobra ni coach. nga pala, level 2 na ang hawak nyang klase ngayon.. actually level 2 to 6. weird eh.. daming katatawanan ever. nakakatuwa talaga sya. marami na syang bagong expression ngayon.
that week pala, nabuhay na naman si dewberry.. at ako ay nagmamagandang hindi nagrereply sa kanya (hah.. madami-daming text ko rin ang hindi nya nireply-an noh). nung araw na pumunta akong center, i finally gave in sa temptation na reply-an na sya, kasi maganda yung tinext nya nung nasa MRT ako. habang nakaupo ako sa center nag-reply ako. later nag-reply sya.. ng isang text na tinaasan ko ng kilay kasi GREEN JOKE. duh.. that's what i get for replying? ok.. palampasin muna.. the following morning, meron na naman, at wag ka, before 7am! i was starting to get upset and offended na. this was something na di ko naisip na ini-entertain nya, at least the image that my mind has managed to conjure about him. sinabi ko kay ate logs, some kinda nadiri sya. tinawag ngang "boy bastos"
anyway, fast break kwento na ito.. masaya ang weekend na yun. di ako nag-swimming. di rin ako nag-videoke. pero nag-yellow cab kami, pa-deliver ko. masaya, pero nung gabi nagagalita sa akin si shoogie kasi i preferred to read my book instead of joining them sa videoke. later nanood na lang kami ni kuya noli ng feng shui (na corny.. galing kong mag-analyze). tapos after non, nag-bonding sandali sa sala.. pero natulog na rin sila ate logs soon after.. kami ni shoogie dun lang sa baba kasama si tita chit saka yung batang alaga ni ate marita doon. pinapatulog na namin yung bata pero ayaw. later si tita natulog na rin. kami ni shoogie umacting na matutulog na para matulog na yung bata. dapat magvideoke pa kami pagkatapos pero nagchikahan (at nagdramahan) na lang kami sa kwarto. wag ka, yung bata, gising pa at 3am, dumaan don sa bintana sa likod namin, may hawak na flashlight. creepy talaga yung bata.. ayun hanggan 4am kaming magkachika ni shoogie. as to whether the weird kid was still up, ewan.
pero paggising namin, gising na rin si weird kid. grabe talaga. sarap ng breakfast. dumating din for lunch sina hazel at super kwento ako ng storya ni boy bastos. pinamimigay ko pa nga ang number nya. ayaw naman ni hazel. hehe. after lunch umuwi na rin kami, sumabay kami kay tita chit. bumaba kami sa may harrison tapos nag-jeep. dami naming uwi, kasi galing cebu si tita alma. dried mangoes galore!
that sunday pala, tinext ko na ulit si Boy Bastos.. semi-mass text (mass kasi madami akong tinext pero chosen pa rin). isang quote na makabagbag-damdamin. isa lang ang nag-reply, sya lang ang nag-reply. ay touched ako, i have to admit, mejo natuwa. kasi after i told him in not so blunt way na na-o-offend ako sa green jokes nya, he never texted again. that message was the start actually, nabuhay na naman.
the contest naman. hmm.. hehe this kwento is soo long overdue dahil its been almost 3 weeks ago na. i went for it. the monday before that was GMA's SONA so walang pasok. during the night before, i have received an email alert from P&G recruiting, where i created a profile some days back dahil sa sobrang inis at asar sa boss ko. there was a position which matched my profile, IT Systems analyst. though i was a bit over the situation then, i considered it well so rare for P&G to have a vacancy in IT, inasmuch as their IT is outsourced to P&G already. so i applied for it, just for the heck of it. i received a confirmation by early morning, asking me to fill out the management assessment form they have at their website. i had filled this out before pero pinapahalata ko pa ang kabaliwan ko noon, and i didn't pass the exam anyway.. so there.. mejo matagal nag-feedback so i kinda forgot about it, after all, P&G yon, and its simply too high a standard for me diba..
anyway, absent me ng wednesday before the contest to practice todo, i think i had it better that day na. buti na lang baking class din ni dang non, so wala talagang tao. dapat bibili ako ng shoes kaya lang dinala naman nila yung susi ng bahay. anyway, ang sinuot ko for the contest yung sinuot ko sa grad ball. sinusukat ko pa nga yung gown ko sa kasal ni blogs, mejo maluwag lang pero mas komportable ako don. pero sabi mama yun na lang daw gradball gown.
the morning ng contest, i tried to be as calm as possible. mejo fast break makeup kami sa SM, si mark ang nagmake-up sa akin, kasi wala pang tao sa David's. masaya.. oks na sana makeup, kaya lang pinakulot ang buhok ko sa dulo.. mukhang engot pero maganda daw. ewan. habang naghihintay sa kin bumili si mommy ng hikaw (super chandelier!). bago umalis ng SM nakapagbihis na rin ako. tapos punta na kaming philamlife. nahirapan pa mag-park si mama kaya nauna na ako.
once there, ayun as expected ang mga pangyayari. hindi cubao people ang andon.. so di naman nagkakilanlan. pero nung andon na ko sa loob, nakita ko sa side si coach carlo ng extension class. hindi ko pa nadala ang fone ko non. pagdating ni mama hiniram ko kagad ang fone para tawagan si coach dynes na hanggang telepono e kino-coach ako. ayun.. may mga di magagaling, may mga ubod ng galing. nung narinig ko yung isang kumanta ng somewhere, wahh.. i never expected to win. grabe ang galing nya.. mas magaling pa ata kay sheryn regis.. as in ang taas na ng kinakanta nya buong buo pa rin yung boses.. andaming magagaling basta. complete with vibrato pa sila. si mama na mas kinakabahan pa sa akin, tinatanong kung uuwi na daw kami. say ko naman, ang bayad ng manonood lang ay 50, 1200 ang binayad ko.
honestly, i was not scared naman. the past performances have taught me how to handle jitters quite well. true, this was a contest. pero from the initial goal to win, i narrowed it down to the desire to be in the top 3. i further narrowed it down to making it to the top 10. come contest day, it was nowhere near that. i merely wanted to perform well, wag sumabit particularly. of all the performances i had, wala pang kahit isa na masasabi kong i'm totally proud of. the wedding, well, forget it. the practicum slow song, sabit ng konti. fast naman, feeling ko i looked uneasy on stage. recital slow, emote ok, tones not. madonna, sablay choreo.. mall show solo, ok na sana, nadulas naman ako. madonna, dahil nadulas ako, badtrip na ako. mama asked that morning pano daw kung sumabit ako. sabi ko sa kanya, there's more to come pag sumabit ako. this is not my last performance anyway.
anyway, when our batch was called na, narecognize na ako ni coach carlo. the weird thing was, i think he told the others who were, in turn, talking about me na. may dalawa kasing staff na nag-uusap, sa lahat ng nagbubulungan sa mundo, sila ang audible ang pinag-uusapan. not really that audible pero i caught one looking at me. so there. kinda tense. syempre ang drama e was setup to do this, so i couldn't really tell them na i verified with the poeple first kung pwede diba..
anyway, di naman ako sumabit. did my best, there were times na naiisip kong kakapusin ako sa mataas pero tingin ko hindi naman, though my high tones were as always quite thin, power was there, pero manipis. i know what i can do more or less, and mas magagaling yung iba. pero i am in no way one of the worst performers there. maybe down the middle, out of the 43 contestants. pero i wouldn't be surprised if i am the youngest. may matatanda na kasi talaga. may mga around 30s. merong mga di talaga magagaling, pero may mga magagaling.
i was particularly after the one na bet ni mama na mananalo. i was backstage nakikinig ako sa kanya, naisip kong bakit ako napasunod sa ganun kagaling.. pero di lang pala xa super kanta, super perform pa daw, wala na daw ituturo ang cpmp doon pag nanalo. sayang di ko sya napanood.. anyway, i didn't make it sa top 10 pero no regrets.. masaya pa rin naman ako na i got to experience it..
anyway, chika ko kagad ke coach.. pero di xa nagrereply. tried calling her na, pero di talaga sumasagot. i on my part was worried baka she got mad at me. as in ilang beses akong tumawag, at different times pa, pero wala, which led me to thinking na baka nga galit na sya sa akin at di nya talaga sinasagot yung mga tawag. come friday morning, i called her again at sinagot na nya.. nasa choir daw xa the day before at 10 na nakauwi. nagulat nga daw xa kasi pagdating nya 21 missed calls yung nasa fone. mejo matagal kaming magkausap, mga 20 minutes din. i built my story up na with her. part of me is guilty with not telling her, coz she's my friend pero may part na hesitant pa rin to trust fully. ewan ko, maybe coz im part of the clientele of her company, di ko yon maalis sa isip ko, na baka she's nice to me coz yun nga, client ako, and they have to be nice to clients, whether they like it or not.
anyway, most of the work week, is plain work. minsan kainis, minsan bearable naman. blue minsan keeps me from being happy, minsan the cause of my happiness (kasi absent sya). maraming bago, SG has been granted a green light na. may mga natapos, may mga pending.
si boy bastos naman, nawawala, nabalik. ang weird, hindi fixed ang life nya compared to the 258 time periods. minsan nawawala. ewan. sometimes, i catch myself ever so excited (but not as much as before) to check my fone tuwing tumutunog. maybe catching a little prayer everytime a "1 message received" appears on screen. a prayer na sana e sya yung nag text. i miss my ericsson talaga pag ganito. countless times akong napangiti, napa-simangot. i'm not that off him yet, pero im unsure as to where i am. minsan naiisip kong iba na ata to, pero minsan naiisip kong may hangover lang ako sa dati kong feelings sa kanya. pero fine, suppressed or not, masaya ako whenever he texts me, sigurado yon. maybe di sobrang masaya, pero as much as i'd like to hide it, may part of me na masaya. there was a time na merong nag-text sa akin ng promo daw ng smart while waiting sa FX station sa makati and playing pac-man. i told that number (unknown kasi) na no such promo exists tapos tinanong ko kung sino, and then proceeded to play pacman na ulit.
nag-reply, pero i ignored it muna and went on playing. after 2 game overs, saka ko lang tiningnan. it wasn't the person na nagtext ng promo. sya. natawa ako, na nagulat. related kaya? kasi yung unknown person ay di na sumagot. ewan.. mag-isip na naman ba.. tama na yung ganon.. anyway, nabubuhay sya, namamatay nga as i said. pero di pa rin namamatay yung thing in me that's wishing that it's him who's texting. hayy.. life.
anyway, end is near. last week ng friday morning, i received a reply from p&g na scheduling me to take their problem solving test na. i passed their management assessment form. i took an emergency leave just this wednesday to take it, and pumasa ako! i reviewed the practice test online this time, and took on answering the questions that i'm familiar with first. buti na nga lang pumasa ako kahit na hindi na ako nagkaron ng time para manghula. hehehe.
after the exam, came the essay questions. andami.. i lasted until 3pm doon sa P&G office just answering their questionnaire. hay. after non, i had a big lunch at jollibee (at that rate, i had a biiiig dinner, and a not so big breakfast). my tummy never looked bigger, hehehe. i just hope i won't be perceived as a psycho after reading the interview. at sana makarating ako sa 1st of a possible 5 interviews. now i eye the prize at the end (the job offer) pero concentrate muna ako with step 1. hayy.. sana.
yesterday was my fave day ever, august 18. nung morning, there were two messages received, one from mam marita kaya di ko na binabasa, hehehe. kala ko naman si shoogie yung isa pero i told myself to read it nalang while waiting for my food. not shoogie, it was 258 (so this makes august 18 an easter wednesday, or i'm naming it easter 18). ayun.. i thought it'd be my main event for the day.. ivy got promoted na pala sa accenture and nagyaya mag dinner kasi she's going to glorietta. di libre pero sumama na ako. upon reaching glorietta, check ko fone ko kasi naka-silent at lowbatt na rin. may message. i expected one from either ivy tungkol sa meeting namin o quote from him.
neither. it was from him, pero a "hw r u?".. natulig ako.. chineck ko munang mabuti baka joke. pero hindi naman. sabi ko sa mall ako, kakaalis lang ng office. sa bacolod pa raw sya, might stay there longer kasi he got a job there na. bank teller sa metrobank. asked him kung ayaw nya consider yung mga companies sa manila.. naka-work na daw sya dito and mas gusto nya nga dito, pero he needed to be with his mom as the eldest daw, kasi matanda na. so he wasn't much of a bum that i thought he was (not 100% bum, part lang, pero still, bum pa rin. ayaw daw ng mom nya mag-relocate sa manila kasi adjusted na sa bacolod.. hmm.. ewan ko naman kung dapat akong sumaya. i mean, madaling mag "how are you" as mass text pag wala ka nang makausap diba? kung "mitch, musta?" man lang yon edi nasa heaven na ako.. pero kahit na.. happy pa rin, malay mo naman, kung hindi man mass text, e namili naman sya.
hayy ewan. later he didn't reply na rin pero kebs lang. pero mejo nadisappoint ako (dahil di xa nagreply). mejo mababa ang sweldo doon sa trabaho nya (di nya sinabi, based on research lang).. pero heck.. like i care about the sweldo.. siguro nga, di xa masyadong matalino, pero nice naman sya, talentado at cute.. hayy.. life.. sana makakita na ako ng bagong inspiration.. hirap ng ganito.. wahh!!
hayy.. sobrang natagalan na ang pag-post ng blog na to. just came from the day 2 of my oracle training.. the instructor is as funny as ever. lately, i've been thinking of deferring my cpmp enrollment for the meantime. concentrate muna ako on a number of things.. gotta slim down, need to clear my face up (as clear as i could muster, though mahirap mangarap ng totally clear), mga issue ko, gotta have my braces removed na, hmm.. as far as singing is concerned, i really would like to finish up my self-paced thingies first before enrolling again..
and since the oracle thingy has started, i've been thinking of having myself certified na rin, regardless of whether i get to P&G or not (though that would be better coz they are leaning on outside certifications daw in P&G lately..).. need to get myself marketable again.. java and oracle ang plans kong karirin ang certification, though m open to SAP as well..
anyway, gotta go.. 8pm na! need to be at OU din tomorrow coz i haven't done my exercises yet!!
puro work ata ng week na to.. though the highlight is that yamot na yamot ako sa blue ko, to the point that i was jobhunting for nearly every night after that. nilunok ko na ang pride ko at kinausap ko ang cousin ko na maraming contact na company (presidents pa ang contacts nya, say mo?), over lunch, to set me up.. i was really raring to go. i didn't care how i would do it, i just wanted to be out of my boss' team. as in ganun ako kabwiset sa kanya. ayun.. by weekend, may treat si ninang fida for her 50th birthday. dapat saturday evening kaya lang nanood kami ni mama ng beauty and the beast sa meralco theater, so it was reset to sunday lunch na. napag-usapan naman ng zest-o club na mag-star city after, kasi sayang yung tickets ni tita alma ni binigay.
anyway.. about the play. i read previously (friday afternoon) sa isang review that karel is a better singer than kc, but kc is a better actress. so sa araw ng play, i was kinda hoping to catch karel, not kc. pero ok lang, it was kc on our show. she was good, though she's not the belter type.. but then again, hindi rin naman sobrang belter ang mom nya. she's good, but not THAT good, maybe because she was surrounded by veterans on stage. the one who played gaston (calvin millado) was hilariously good, the beast, portrayed by jett pangan, very good din. mrs. potts, portrayed by pinky marquez (karel's mom) was good too. yung ibang characters good rin..
anyway, mama and i had a dialogue (the same old boring topic) again on our way home. naiinis na ako talaga.. she says, in life, you can't go about doing everything you like doing, there are things na ginagawa dahil kailangan. sya daw, mas madaming ginagawang kailangan kaysa gusto. heck, that's precisely what i don't want myself to be. in a way, i don't want to be like her. she's not that bad, but i can tell that she isn't as happy as she could be. ayokong maging ganon ako.
anyway, come sunday, may treat si ninang. maaga kaming dumating sa glorietta.. so nag-ikot ikot muna kami. saya ng chika namin ni zhel.. ang tagal kasi nina shoogie, at blogz. tawanan lang kami ng tawanan.. sa instant ayos (tangos_, chinika ko na rin ang tatangkad (tatangos) rin ito.. haha. pati pagkain.. paano ba naman kasi, ang liit liit nung plato sa kwantung.. kulang pa sa rice consumption ko, hehehe. yun.. pati food binubusisi namin. later dumating na rin sina shoogie at blogz, napalayo nga lang sila ng upuan samin..
after, kanya kanyang lakad. kami naman, walang mapuntahan sa glorietta. naiinitan na ko sa suot ko, tapos si bea nagta-tantrums na. i was getting pissed off na.. gusto ko kasama sila, pero ayoko ng ganon super tantrums yung bata.. di naman namin maiwan. punta na lang kaming oakwood, hoping na bukas ang day care.. pero sarado. tambay na lang kami sa lobby kasi naiwan ni blogz ang susi nya ng office sa bahay. sina shoogie nag picture-an dun sa may swimming pool, naglaro si bea, at nag gameboy naman ako.. yoko kasing lumabas. later, napag-desisyonan na mag-redbox na lang. inuwi muna namin si bea para bihisan, pero at the end natulog na sya at si kuya noli kaya si blogz na lang ang sumama sa amin.
dapat pupunta pa kami kina shoogie kasi kukunin ang redbox certificate. kaya lang pinauwi na kami ng mga elders na nagpapahalata ng age. si tita chit tinopak na.. di daw nagpaalam si shoogie (duh?).. at lalong tinopak nung nalaman na wala kami sa glorietta kundi sa bahay nina ate logz.. na as if its 12AM at kami ay nagpunta sa isang gay bar.. natraffic pa kami pabalik ng ayala kasi may banggaan sa paseo. so pagdating namin ng landmark where they were waiting, badtrip na kami lahat.. lalo na kay tita chit.. as in sobra.. masyadong syang unreasonable. habang pabalik nga kami super simangot na kami.. kinausap ko pa si mama para kalmahin si tita before we even got there. si hazel pinayagan, though sabi wag na daw kaming tumuloy kasi di kasama si shoogie. saya, si ate blogz e umalis para samahan kami at ihatid. pero on our way back, nag-stop over at shakey's glorietta.. which ended up to dinner. habang may semi-hingahan kami ng sama ng loob, may tinuro si kaye na babaeng maputi.. ganon ko daw gusto maging skintone. lahat kami nilingon yung babae kahit likod na lang nya yung makikita. e may kasamang american yung girl.. and tamang tama na paglingon namin, pininch ng guy yung butt ng girl.. yuck.. hehe.
masaya din sa shakey's. the following weekend pupunta kami kina ninang para samahan si ninang ah kasi wala si tita alma. hehe. maraming bloopers. masama nga loob ko kasi gusto ko talaga ng yellow cab, pero napagkasunduan na sa overnight na lang kami magye-yellow cab.
earlier that week, i ditched a dinner treat ng isang big boss sa team for going to center for pop para sa contest prep. syempre si coach dynes ang coach. masaya sobra.. its nice to be back! kwela sobra ni coach. nga pala, level 2 na ang hawak nyang klase ngayon.. actually level 2 to 6. weird eh.. daming katatawanan ever. nakakatuwa talaga sya. marami na syang bagong expression ngayon.
that week pala, nabuhay na naman si dewberry.. at ako ay nagmamagandang hindi nagrereply sa kanya (hah.. madami-daming text ko rin ang hindi nya nireply-an noh). nung araw na pumunta akong center, i finally gave in sa temptation na reply-an na sya, kasi maganda yung tinext nya nung nasa MRT ako. habang nakaupo ako sa center nag-reply ako. later nag-reply sya.. ng isang text na tinaasan ko ng kilay kasi GREEN JOKE. duh.. that's what i get for replying? ok.. palampasin muna.. the following morning, meron na naman, at wag ka, before 7am! i was starting to get upset and offended na. this was something na di ko naisip na ini-entertain nya, at least the image that my mind has managed to conjure about him. sinabi ko kay ate logs, some kinda nadiri sya. tinawag ngang "boy bastos"
anyway, fast break kwento na ito.. masaya ang weekend na yun. di ako nag-swimming. di rin ako nag-videoke. pero nag-yellow cab kami, pa-deliver ko. masaya, pero nung gabi nagagalita sa akin si shoogie kasi i preferred to read my book instead of joining them sa videoke. later nanood na lang kami ni kuya noli ng feng shui (na corny.. galing kong mag-analyze). tapos after non, nag-bonding sandali sa sala.. pero natulog na rin sila ate logs soon after.. kami ni shoogie dun lang sa baba kasama si tita chit saka yung batang alaga ni ate marita doon. pinapatulog na namin yung bata pero ayaw. later si tita natulog na rin. kami ni shoogie umacting na matutulog na para matulog na yung bata. dapat magvideoke pa kami pagkatapos pero nagchikahan (at nagdramahan) na lang kami sa kwarto. wag ka, yung bata, gising pa at 3am, dumaan don sa bintana sa likod namin, may hawak na flashlight. creepy talaga yung bata.. ayun hanggan 4am kaming magkachika ni shoogie. as to whether the weird kid was still up, ewan.
pero paggising namin, gising na rin si weird kid. grabe talaga. sarap ng breakfast. dumating din for lunch sina hazel at super kwento ako ng storya ni boy bastos. pinamimigay ko pa nga ang number nya. ayaw naman ni hazel. hehe. after lunch umuwi na rin kami, sumabay kami kay tita chit. bumaba kami sa may harrison tapos nag-jeep. dami naming uwi, kasi galing cebu si tita alma. dried mangoes galore!
that sunday pala, tinext ko na ulit si Boy Bastos.. semi-mass text (mass kasi madami akong tinext pero chosen pa rin). isang quote na makabagbag-damdamin. isa lang ang nag-reply, sya lang ang nag-reply. ay touched ako, i have to admit, mejo natuwa. kasi after i told him in not so blunt way na na-o-offend ako sa green jokes nya, he never texted again. that message was the start actually, nabuhay na naman.
the contest naman. hmm.. hehe this kwento is soo long overdue dahil its been almost 3 weeks ago na. i went for it. the monday before that was GMA's SONA so walang pasok. during the night before, i have received an email alert from P&G recruiting, where i created a profile some days back dahil sa sobrang inis at asar sa boss ko. there was a position which matched my profile, IT Systems analyst. though i was a bit over the situation then, i considered it well so rare for P&G to have a vacancy in IT, inasmuch as their IT is outsourced to P&G already. so i applied for it, just for the heck of it. i received a confirmation by early morning, asking me to fill out the management assessment form they have at their website. i had filled this out before pero pinapahalata ko pa ang kabaliwan ko noon, and i didn't pass the exam anyway.. so there.. mejo matagal nag-feedback so i kinda forgot about it, after all, P&G yon, and its simply too high a standard for me diba..
anyway, absent me ng wednesday before the contest to practice todo, i think i had it better that day na. buti na lang baking class din ni dang non, so wala talagang tao. dapat bibili ako ng shoes kaya lang dinala naman nila yung susi ng bahay. anyway, ang sinuot ko for the contest yung sinuot ko sa grad ball. sinusukat ko pa nga yung gown ko sa kasal ni blogs, mejo maluwag lang pero mas komportable ako don. pero sabi mama yun na lang daw gradball gown.
the morning ng contest, i tried to be as calm as possible. mejo fast break makeup kami sa SM, si mark ang nagmake-up sa akin, kasi wala pang tao sa David's. masaya.. oks na sana makeup, kaya lang pinakulot ang buhok ko sa dulo.. mukhang engot pero maganda daw. ewan. habang naghihintay sa kin bumili si mommy ng hikaw (super chandelier!). bago umalis ng SM nakapagbihis na rin ako. tapos punta na kaming philamlife. nahirapan pa mag-park si mama kaya nauna na ako.
once there, ayun as expected ang mga pangyayari. hindi cubao people ang andon.. so di naman nagkakilanlan. pero nung andon na ko sa loob, nakita ko sa side si coach carlo ng extension class. hindi ko pa nadala ang fone ko non. pagdating ni mama hiniram ko kagad ang fone para tawagan si coach dynes na hanggang telepono e kino-coach ako. ayun.. may mga di magagaling, may mga ubod ng galing. nung narinig ko yung isang kumanta ng somewhere, wahh.. i never expected to win. grabe ang galing nya.. mas magaling pa ata kay sheryn regis.. as in ang taas na ng kinakanta nya buong buo pa rin yung boses.. andaming magagaling basta. complete with vibrato pa sila. si mama na mas kinakabahan pa sa akin, tinatanong kung uuwi na daw kami. say ko naman, ang bayad ng manonood lang ay 50, 1200 ang binayad ko.
honestly, i was not scared naman. the past performances have taught me how to handle jitters quite well. true, this was a contest. pero from the initial goal to win, i narrowed it down to the desire to be in the top 3. i further narrowed it down to making it to the top 10. come contest day, it was nowhere near that. i merely wanted to perform well, wag sumabit particularly. of all the performances i had, wala pang kahit isa na masasabi kong i'm totally proud of. the wedding, well, forget it. the practicum slow song, sabit ng konti. fast naman, feeling ko i looked uneasy on stage. recital slow, emote ok, tones not. madonna, sablay choreo.. mall show solo, ok na sana, nadulas naman ako. madonna, dahil nadulas ako, badtrip na ako. mama asked that morning pano daw kung sumabit ako. sabi ko sa kanya, there's more to come pag sumabit ako. this is not my last performance anyway.
anyway, when our batch was called na, narecognize na ako ni coach carlo. the weird thing was, i think he told the others who were, in turn, talking about me na. may dalawa kasing staff na nag-uusap, sa lahat ng nagbubulungan sa mundo, sila ang audible ang pinag-uusapan. not really that audible pero i caught one looking at me. so there. kinda tense. syempre ang drama e was setup to do this, so i couldn't really tell them na i verified with the poeple first kung pwede diba..
anyway, di naman ako sumabit. did my best, there were times na naiisip kong kakapusin ako sa mataas pero tingin ko hindi naman, though my high tones were as always quite thin, power was there, pero manipis. i know what i can do more or less, and mas magagaling yung iba. pero i am in no way one of the worst performers there. maybe down the middle, out of the 43 contestants. pero i wouldn't be surprised if i am the youngest. may matatanda na kasi talaga. may mga around 30s. merong mga di talaga magagaling, pero may mga magagaling.
i was particularly after the one na bet ni mama na mananalo. i was backstage nakikinig ako sa kanya, naisip kong bakit ako napasunod sa ganun kagaling.. pero di lang pala xa super kanta, super perform pa daw, wala na daw ituturo ang cpmp doon pag nanalo. sayang di ko sya napanood.. anyway, i didn't make it sa top 10 pero no regrets.. masaya pa rin naman ako na i got to experience it..
anyway, chika ko kagad ke coach.. pero di xa nagrereply. tried calling her na, pero di talaga sumasagot. i on my part was worried baka she got mad at me. as in ilang beses akong tumawag, at different times pa, pero wala, which led me to thinking na baka nga galit na sya sa akin at di nya talaga sinasagot yung mga tawag. come friday morning, i called her again at sinagot na nya.. nasa choir daw xa the day before at 10 na nakauwi. nagulat nga daw xa kasi pagdating nya 21 missed calls yung nasa fone. mejo matagal kaming magkausap, mga 20 minutes din. i built my story up na with her. part of me is guilty with not telling her, coz she's my friend pero may part na hesitant pa rin to trust fully. ewan ko, maybe coz im part of the clientele of her company, di ko yon maalis sa isip ko, na baka she's nice to me coz yun nga, client ako, and they have to be nice to clients, whether they like it or not.
anyway, most of the work week, is plain work. minsan kainis, minsan bearable naman. blue minsan keeps me from being happy, minsan the cause of my happiness (kasi absent sya). maraming bago, SG has been granted a green light na. may mga natapos, may mga pending.
si boy bastos naman, nawawala, nabalik. ang weird, hindi fixed ang life nya compared to the 258 time periods. minsan nawawala. ewan. sometimes, i catch myself ever so excited (but not as much as before) to check my fone tuwing tumutunog. maybe catching a little prayer everytime a "1 message received" appears on screen. a prayer na sana e sya yung nag text. i miss my ericsson talaga pag ganito. countless times akong napangiti, napa-simangot. i'm not that off him yet, pero im unsure as to where i am. minsan naiisip kong iba na ata to, pero minsan naiisip kong may hangover lang ako sa dati kong feelings sa kanya. pero fine, suppressed or not, masaya ako whenever he texts me, sigurado yon. maybe di sobrang masaya, pero as much as i'd like to hide it, may part of me na masaya. there was a time na merong nag-text sa akin ng promo daw ng smart while waiting sa FX station sa makati and playing pac-man. i told that number (unknown kasi) na no such promo exists tapos tinanong ko kung sino, and then proceeded to play pacman na ulit.
nag-reply, pero i ignored it muna and went on playing. after 2 game overs, saka ko lang tiningnan. it wasn't the person na nagtext ng promo. sya. natawa ako, na nagulat. related kaya? kasi yung unknown person ay di na sumagot. ewan.. mag-isip na naman ba.. tama na yung ganon.. anyway, nabubuhay sya, namamatay nga as i said. pero di pa rin namamatay yung thing in me that's wishing that it's him who's texting. hayy.. life.
anyway, end is near. last week ng friday morning, i received a reply from p&g na scheduling me to take their problem solving test na. i passed their management assessment form. i took an emergency leave just this wednesday to take it, and pumasa ako! i reviewed the practice test online this time, and took on answering the questions that i'm familiar with first. buti na nga lang pumasa ako kahit na hindi na ako nagkaron ng time para manghula. hehehe.
after the exam, came the essay questions. andami.. i lasted until 3pm doon sa P&G office just answering their questionnaire. hay. after non, i had a big lunch at jollibee (at that rate, i had a biiiig dinner, and a not so big breakfast). my tummy never looked bigger, hehehe. i just hope i won't be perceived as a psycho after reading the interview. at sana makarating ako sa 1st of a possible 5 interviews. now i eye the prize at the end (the job offer) pero concentrate muna ako with step 1. hayy.. sana.
yesterday was my fave day ever, august 18. nung morning, there were two messages received, one from mam marita kaya di ko na binabasa, hehehe. kala ko naman si shoogie yung isa pero i told myself to read it nalang while waiting for my food. not shoogie, it was 258 (so this makes august 18 an easter wednesday, or i'm naming it easter 18). ayun.. i thought it'd be my main event for the day.. ivy got promoted na pala sa accenture and nagyaya mag dinner kasi she's going to glorietta. di libre pero sumama na ako. upon reaching glorietta, check ko fone ko kasi naka-silent at lowbatt na rin. may message. i expected one from either ivy tungkol sa meeting namin o quote from him.
neither. it was from him, pero a "hw r u?".. natulig ako.. chineck ko munang mabuti baka joke. pero hindi naman. sabi ko sa mall ako, kakaalis lang ng office. sa bacolod pa raw sya, might stay there longer kasi he got a job there na. bank teller sa metrobank. asked him kung ayaw nya consider yung mga companies sa manila.. naka-work na daw sya dito and mas gusto nya nga dito, pero he needed to be with his mom as the eldest daw, kasi matanda na. so he wasn't much of a bum that i thought he was (not 100% bum, part lang, pero still, bum pa rin. ayaw daw ng mom nya mag-relocate sa manila kasi adjusted na sa bacolod.. hmm.. ewan ko naman kung dapat akong sumaya. i mean, madaling mag "how are you" as mass text pag wala ka nang makausap diba? kung "mitch, musta?" man lang yon edi nasa heaven na ako.. pero kahit na.. happy pa rin, malay mo naman, kung hindi man mass text, e namili naman sya.
hayy ewan. later he didn't reply na rin pero kebs lang. pero mejo nadisappoint ako (dahil di xa nagreply). mejo mababa ang sweldo doon sa trabaho nya (di nya sinabi, based on research lang).. pero heck.. like i care about the sweldo.. siguro nga, di xa masyadong matalino, pero nice naman sya, talentado at cute.. hayy.. life.. sana makakita na ako ng bagong inspiration.. hirap ng ganito.. wahh!!
hayy.. sobrang natagalan na ang pag-post ng blog na to. just came from the day 2 of my oracle training.. the instructor is as funny as ever. lately, i've been thinking of deferring my cpmp enrollment for the meantime. concentrate muna ako on a number of things.. gotta slim down, need to clear my face up (as clear as i could muster, though mahirap mangarap ng totally clear), mga issue ko, gotta have my braces removed na, hmm.. as far as singing is concerned, i really would like to finish up my self-paced thingies first before enrolling again..
and since the oracle thingy has started, i've been thinking of having myself certified na rin, regardless of whether i get to P&G or not (though that would be better coz they are leaning on outside certifications daw in P&G lately..).. need to get myself marketable again.. java and oracle ang plans kong karirin ang certification, though m open to SAP as well..
anyway, gotta go.. 8pm na! need to be at OU din tomorrow coz i haven't done my exercises yet!!
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