just when i didn't expect it..
while i was writing last night, my phone was sooo out of juice na. i managed to squeeze a little bit out of it to see shoogie's reply which was obviously sent hours before. anyway, the FX took unexpectedly long to fill up, and upon alighting from the freezingly cold van, i decided to stop by mercury drug to buy some vitamins, conditioner, oil control film which i have lived without for around 3 weeks.
it didn't help that i got out of the office at almost 8pm. so, to put it bluntly, i reached home at 9:30pm. i was surprised myself.. didn't know it was that late. never got around to looking at my wristwatch while i was at mercury drug, tsk tsk.
i chatted a bit then went up. i fixed some things before i finally decided to hunt down my elusive charger to charge my phone (minisync for my SE baby is coming..). it was on silent mode after all.. after converting a number of MP3s to lower bitrate for iriver transfer, i checked my phone.
2 messages received.
half-expecting two 3-digit numbers, or all caps senders (from the network, where else?) texting me, i was wrong. one was from mama, asking me where i was. the other one, was, surprisingly, from dewberry. nothing too big to write home about. he texted a quote, with a following message to pray for him, as he had an undertaking for today. i texted him back, though i didn't know if he was still awake at that time (it was nearly 11pm then).
i wonder what that is, though. he didn't tell me. i, on my part, am not sure if i wanted to know or not. im not sure if Rhea, Anne or anybody he was involved with sa CPMP knew. Before i was thinking he was subscribed to this limited unlimited texting plan we had before. Getting that thought off yesterday with the unlimited reload.. pero here he comes again texting (though not much of a habit) by nightfall. dunno if it was a mass-text though. do i care? maybe.. but then again, maybe not.
so what was that lapse for? reality check maybe. to stop me from being attracted to him eventually, for no reason at all!! i was growing increasingly fond of him.. and was beginning to be sooo unlike me.. albeit for reasons that my crazy mind has managed to squeeze out of its deep void during those two weeks. thinking back, looking back with more objective spectacles than i had before, i have come to conclude, i'm just his friend. and that's all i'll ever be. and maybe, just maybe, that was all i have wanted to be for him. no more, no less.
do i still like him? yes i still do. but on a more realistic view now. who knows? he may not be as hyped up as i thought (or imagined) he was.
but the height still hasn't eluded my senses. i still am fully aware that i am taller than him.. hehehe.
it didn't help that i got out of the office at almost 8pm. so, to put it bluntly, i reached home at 9:30pm. i was surprised myself.. didn't know it was that late. never got around to looking at my wristwatch while i was at mercury drug, tsk tsk.
i chatted a bit then went up. i fixed some things before i finally decided to hunt down my elusive charger to charge my phone (minisync for my SE baby is coming..). it was on silent mode after all.. after converting a number of MP3s to lower bitrate for iriver transfer, i checked my phone.
2 messages received.
half-expecting two 3-digit numbers, or all caps senders (from the network, where else?) texting me, i was wrong. one was from mama, asking me where i was. the other one, was, surprisingly, from dewberry. nothing too big to write home about. he texted a quote, with a following message to pray for him, as he had an undertaking for today. i texted him back, though i didn't know if he was still awake at that time (it was nearly 11pm then).
i wonder what that is, though. he didn't tell me. i, on my part, am not sure if i wanted to know or not. im not sure if Rhea, Anne or anybody he was involved with sa CPMP knew. Before i was thinking he was subscribed to this limited unlimited texting plan we had before. Getting that thought off yesterday with the unlimited reload.. pero here he comes again texting (though not much of a habit) by nightfall. dunno if it was a mass-text though. do i care? maybe.. but then again, maybe not.
so what was that lapse for? reality check maybe. to stop me from being attracted to him eventually, for no reason at all!! i was growing increasingly fond of him.. and was beginning to be sooo unlike me.. albeit for reasons that my crazy mind has managed to squeeze out of its deep void during those two weeks. thinking back, looking back with more objective spectacles than i had before, i have come to conclude, i'm just his friend. and that's all i'll ever be. and maybe, just maybe, that was all i have wanted to be for him. no more, no less.
do i still like him? yes i still do. but on a more realistic view now. who knows? he may not be as hyped up as i thought (or imagined) he was.
but the height still hasn't eluded my senses. i still am fully aware that i am taller than him.. hehehe.
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