why can't she understand..?

bakit di nya maintindihan? i'm doing this because i love doing it, i'm enjoying myself kahit na i admit, this will do nothing for my career. i'm not going to get promoted because of this. this isn't plus points for my career. its for ME. my personality. my enjoyment. my happiness. i am happy when i sing, and people are impressed. when i am being commended for a well-done performance. even if i am being stopped in the middle of a song because of corrections, i am happy. because i am actually doing it. something which i never even attempted to do before. i am breaking new ground. even if i have to go and get my own money to pay for this. this is not career points.. these are ME points.. they matter more than my career.

but these are not just plus points for myself as an individual. this is part of what i want myself to be. i want to impress people when I sing. who knows? this could open new channels for me as well. i do this because i like it, and i enjoy doing it. i'm not asking for money to do this, i do it even if i had to sweat my way to earn money to continue doing this. i still will do it. for one, i think its worth my time and money. i get a good feeling out of myself whenever i am there.

true, it causes me stress sometimes. but since i started these lessons, i have done things i never even thought i could do before. i made new friends. i got recognized in a field i was so scared to even stand up and try before. i developed confidence, not to mention a voice which merited good comments when i perform.

i am going to continue this. not for others, but for myself. i don't care what they think. this is for me. and i wouldn't think twice about doing things for myself. period.